:YEAH RIGHT

It's all ME isn't it? Nice way out, buddy. That's why I called you a jerk and a coward. A jerk because you should've spoken to me as soon as you were having doubts seeing that you knew I am looking for a relationship not any casual affair; that would've been the gentlemanly thing to do, and the opposite of gentleman is jerk. A coward, because you found every reason in the book not to feel some love and affection toward me. I mean, ANY love or affection until I pass all these tests you've determined will bring you the ideal woman to help you be a father, and you know what, you under-estimated me because you are a half-empty glass kinda guy. I woulda been best friends with your girl not only because I'm a professional woman but because I'm real.  It's the reason most kids like me. I'm not hiding anything. Unlike you, who puts his best face forward only to reveal less and less... and an artist who is afraid to show himself is the worst coward of all. 

If you had gradually revealed yourself to me you would've had the world! and instead you're back to being almost 50 and alone just like all the subjects in your photos set against a life-worn texture in sepia tones. In my art creations, your influence takes on shades of white, blue, with splatters of red, and many terrible words that you uttered to me when I was most vulnerable.

Here's a clue: Stop sabotaging relationships with women who genuinely like you. Have a nice life f***head! Now you learned something too. Maybe.

OLIVE BRANCH

She: Hi T, are you still angry with me?

(3 days later)

He: Hi A, I am not angry. But I have to say u handled the whole thing very badly and all I know is that you are not the girl for me. This I am certain. Your basically a good person who has a lot to offer so I know you will find your guy. I’m just not him.
Good luck with your search. Best, T

She: Thank you for the reply T. It was hurting alot to imagine that you wouldn't care enough to reply to me. So thank you for being considerate, it means alot. It saddens me greatly to hear that you are so convinced that I am not the right girl based on the short and very intense time we spent together. It feels so unfair since all you saw are fragments here and there but I understand that the long-distance aspect was something you were struggling with from the start. I also felt like I was being 'tested' alot and I wonder what feedback you would've gotten if you had just been present and let yourself feel before judging, but that's neither here nor there. Do I have alot to learn? Yes. In hindsight, should I have gone back on Match as I did? NO! But to completely discount what we had because of one mistake is a very judgemental attitude that I too used to have until I learned to be more forgiving in general. So maybe this is some form of Karmic lesson. Now I know how much it sucks on the receiving end and I accept it. Thank you for this valuable lesson.

TEXT ROMANCE

DEC 31 2008
(following two dates... no physical contact)

He: Hi you, have a great time ringing in the new year. I believe nature has a magical experience planned for us on Saturday. I say we elect to not interfere. You?

She: Thanks H. May your celebrating be just as merry. Not sure what natural surprise you speak of, care to share?

He: Nature has the answer, but if you have to question, perhaps I was wrong... unless ur being frisky :-)

She: Nature may have the answers, but people should be more direct. I'm not being frisky. What are you hiding?

He: I'm not a hider; I'm a show-er. In fact, I plan on showing you my portfolio, and perhaps, other things. Maybe you'll have things to show me as well.

She: Anything is possible but I still do not understand how all that relates to nature's plans... i'm only trying to understand you H. Less riddle more fact please.

He: Unfortunately I'm not a fortune teller. I'm simply sharing with youthe idea that, when people with chemistry get together, magical moments are born of nature.

She: And especially on Saturday??? Your sentiment sure is true in a general sort of way but can you understand why I didn't understand? It's also possible we don't have as much chemistry as needed to understand ;^P
He: Possible, but it doesn't prohibit me from mustering the interest to find out. You?

She: You shouldn't have to muster interest for anyone. Me, I have to admit I'm lukewarm about the idea of us which means alot of work for you. Why don't we take some time and not overthink this. Let me just clarify that I think you are a good 'catch' even if not quite right for me.

He: Would you be a dear and pass the phone to the lady I spent a lovely Saturday night with? Oh, wait, I just remembered you're a Gemini.

She: I'm still the same lady and yes a Gemini. And if you asked me these questions in person at the end of the night I would've answered the same way except you would hear my tone... which is friendly. It's not easy finding the right companion and neither one of us should be mad for trying.


No futher contact until....
JAN 7 2009

He: I'm not expecting any miracles but I'm forever in awe of them... Would u like to kiss, then maybe shortly afterwards, have sex with me?

She: Nope.